I have been with Team Nunez since 2008. In that many years you grow bonds with people, get comfortable about who you are and what you are doing, and feel secure. Feeling secure is the most important for someone who has never really felt secure in their lives.
I have known for years that I have been ready to move up positions in my job, but my fear of change and the comfort that I have had with my boss and my teammates has always kept me in my safe cocoon. It was when my boss got moved up that me and other teammates moved too. We were told that if we did that that we could stay together and so we did...
I found out last week that I was being reassigned to a new manager. Since I have been under such stress recently it was just the last push I needed to really break the camel's back. I broke down in tears and all my husband could do was take me in his arms and let me cry. I will never forget that.
I was off for a couple of days and when I came back I made sure that I came extra early so that when I moved no one else was able to me cry. Oh I did cry.
It's almost been a week since my move and my new boss is great. Even still, my heart hurts to be back with the people that I have come to know as family. To many people, getting sad over something like that sounds so obsurd, but to me it was like leaving my family behind.
Nunez has always told me that it was time to spread my wings and fly. How do you that when your biggest fear is failure? Change? If someone knows the answer, could you please tell me?
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