Well it's been a while since I've written on my blog. I have gone through some pretty drastic changes in my life in the last week.
First and foremost I want to thank my amazing best friends Anabel, Jason, Kurt, Andre, and last but certainty not least - Anthony for standing by me with what has to have been one of the most difficult times on my life. You guys will always be my best friends no matter what roads we travel and I love you like my brothers and sister.
And Carlos I know we may not always be on the same page,(hardly ever lol) but when I'm down you never let me do it alone. Thanks for dealing with my ups and downs and mood swings and being the greatest dad ever to our kids.
While I will miss the people that I care for so deeply, I am actually relieved. As crazy as it sounds, I had been very unhappy with the way things were going and the nepotism, the lies, and the corruption within Chase's upper management and had literally updated my resume and applied at USAA one day before leaving the company.
While leaving is something that I had been planning to do for quite sometime the way that it happened has made me very bitter, angry, and depressed. I never knew that one could feel all these emotions at once when they weren't pregnant! OMG!
Each day that passes I am healing a bit more and it helps that my family; especially my wonderful aunts Toni, Oli, and Jackie and awesome cousin Gloria that have given me encouragement through their words of wisdom AND my love of the Lord.
I know that I shouldn't be bitter and count my blessings, but it's hard when people make you feel like there's no hope for fairness in our world. It's so sad. I don't wish bad on the people that did me wrong. As a matter of fact, I wish them well, because God doesn't like ugly and He will handle this Himself.
A lesson learned is that I'm much stronger than I thought I was. I thought that first day that I could not move past this (Dramatic I know) but I can and I will, so much bigger and better than before. You think you can bring me down? Nah, at the end I will be the last one laughing...
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